I pulled the plug on my juice feast. My coach felt like there were some changes we could make that could keep me in the game, but yesterday seriously freaked me out. I decided I needed to stop. Last night I had some more juice and a small salad. I felt better.
Today I had actual food for breakfast and then went to class as I normally do. I think I finally have a handle on what it means to give your own personal 100%. On the outside, it probably looked like I was giving 50-75% of my normal self. But I wasn’t. I was giving my 100% for that day. I wasn’t completely back online yet mentally or physically after yesterday. I took it slow. I paced myself. There were times I got dizzy or felt really whacked out mentally. When that happened I sat down or did savassanah. The result was that class was fine.
For lunch today I went to my beloved Salsa Fresh and had actual cheese. I had a cheese quesadilla with a side of queso dip to dunk it in. I had chips and salsa. It was wonderful.
That said, I am not going whole hog back on the dairy. I like how I feel when I don’t eat dairy. I am though implementing my new rule which says that I am vegan at home and a vegetarian/vegan when I am outside the home. I eat at home more than I eat out, and when I go to my office I often bring my lunch with me so I’ll be eating more vegan meals than not.
I definitely don’t consider my stopping the feast a failure. I know you all don’t either, and I really do appreciate all the support I received yesterday. It meant a lot. I felt like such crap yesterday. Thanks for the kind words. I wanted to make the point about not being a failure though because it goes beyond this feast. Anytime we try something new, be it a juice feast or more Bikram classes, or whatever we never really know what to expect. Just trying it and seeing what it brings, and being open to what it brings, is important. It’s how we learn and grow. I may not do a juice feast again anytime soon (or ever), but I have learned a lot about myself and a lot about juicing. Here are some things I learned:
– juicing red leaf lettuce is amazing. do yourself a favor and put it with some cucumber, lemon, and ginger.
– pineapple in green juice is wonderfully delicious
– I may get cravings for particular kinds of food, but I am capabale of not letting those cravings break me down. I can simply notice them and move on. My mind my be trying to get the best of me, but I am stronger than I realize
– Everyday is a new day and a new chance to get back up and start all over or go in a completely new direction. Enjoy the journey and pay attention.