I have concluded that there is no shame in doing savasana at any time, any place, anywhere. I imagine most of you already believe this, but let me tell you about my long-standing savasana guilt.
I experience savasana guilt anytime I want to sit out a posture. Keep in mind I’m not sitting out because I am being lazy. I’m sitting out because I feel dizzy, or nauseous, or I’m dehydrated (yep. I still slip up now and then!). You know those times – we all have them. But for some reason I feel major savasana guilt when I take an extra one (or four) in a class. Never mind the fact that when I’m in a fully sanctioned savasana I’m fidgeting and twitching and scratching an itch and rubbing my nose. I can’t seem to appreciate the savasana when I’m in it.
What’s up with that? 🙂
For whatever reason, I think that I should just push through the dizziness or whatever nasty feeling I am having and skip taking extra savasana’s when the issue arises. And yes, I do believe there is value to being mindful about why I might take an extra savasana. Am I taking it because I truly need it? Am I taking it to avoid a posture?
Ok….to be fair….I have done both of those.
And when I sit out to avoid the posture, I often use the time to have a conversation with myself about why I made the decision to skip the posture. I try to use the moment to identify whatever it is I am avoiding (triangle, I’m looking at you!).
Of course I don’t begrudge YOU taking a savasana whenever YOU need it. If I see you taking extra I’ll wish the best for you and hope you are ok. I swear I don’t think ill of people who do this. So why am I so hard on myself?
I came to terms with my savasana guilt a few days ago when I was – surprise! – having a “bad” class (there are no bad classes, right? Just class) and taking some extra savasanas. I noticed my guilt and so used my savasanas to explore it. I concluded that there was nothing to be ashamed of. There is never anything to be ashamed of when taking an extra savasana. Even when I sit out a posture to avoid it, there is no shame. I’m simply moving through whatever I need to move through – and in Bikram this happens on a physical, mental, and emotional level.
All this means that sometimes we will be physically fine to do a posture but we will be faced with other things in the mental and emotional realm that might cause for an extra savasana. That’s ok. Let it happen. Take that savasana. There is no shame.