Recently, I met someone who had tried Bikram Yoga once (not sure where or how long ago). She explained that her class was awful. Afterwards, she was in the lobby and kept hearing people say how great they felt. She told me:
Everyone kept saying they felt so good after class, but I felt so awful. How can anyone feel good after class?
Well, what I want to say is this: We all have bad classes.
I get how weird we must seem to a newcomer. I get how bad class can feel if you are new to the practice. I still remember my first class. I took it in the morning. Then I went home, ate a truck load of food, and passed out for two hours. Then I didn’t go back for at least a week (and I kinda had to force myself to go back).
Since then, I have had my share of good classes, great classes, and horrible classes. No matter how long you have been practicing this will always be the case. Sometimes, I realize that I am the creator of my own horrible classes. I didn’t hydrate enough, or I went when I was sick, or my eating/sleeping was off. There are any number of things we can do to ourselves that can result in a bad class.
Then, there are just bad classes. These are the classes where you show up (sometimes even thinking you’re going to have an amazing class! you’re just so happy to be there!), you’ve eaten/hydrated/done everything right, but you end up on the floor praying for death.
I have no idea why these classes happen, but they do. And if you are a newcomer, or thinking about trying it out, I hope you feel a bit better just knowing that not only have we all been there, but we will continue to go there. I also hope that doesn’t depress you! It’s easy to think that if you keep coming eventually the bad classes will stop, but to be honest they will always pop up now and then. You never know when, but don’t let that scare you.
Because, you see, the beauty of this practice is that it teaches you acceptance. If you can accept you for you in every sliver of every moment, no matter what that moment looks like, then you have truly had a great class.